*Spazz*

I'm sorry. I'm stressed. I spazz when I'm stressed.
I live for deadlines. I'm most productive when I'm working under pressure. It's sick, but I love it. I definitely do my best work when I'm under loads of pressure. I mull and think for ages about something, then it's all boiled down to 4 hours and voila - it's done.
The thing that I'm not good at is juggling - juggling my lives. There's the life that I know B.J. (before Japan) and the life that I have now. There are good things about both lives, but since mum's visiting now... I'm having to juggle the 2 "me"s.
I feel guilty all the time for not doing certain things. *sigh*
Guilt. It's eating me up from inside.
Guilt.~