*Trust*

trust - n. Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing.

I usually have a pretty good sense in feeling out people. I can usually sense whether or not a person is trustworthy within 15 minutes upon meeting and talking to a person. I admit that on occasion I have been wrong, but generally my track record's pretty solid.
My problem boils down to this. Should you trust gut instinct or trust someone close? I've been beating myself up these past few months on this one. See, I do trust this person... but something always pops up that makes me question this trust I'm placing on them. Something came up again today... and I just can't let it slide this time.
I hate not being able to trust in someone in my life. It's just so much easier when you trust everyone around you, just so that you can just get on with your life and also accomodate them at the same time.
Why is my gut instinct flashing red lights?

*Back "home"*

I'm back at "home" in Japan for a couple days before I take off again. Spent the last 2 weeks in New Jersey, New York and Boston. It was productive and surprisingly pleasant - despite the freezing temps. L got her thesis done - yay! Met up with T and R. Found myself a Snuffleupagus and did a teeny bit of shopping. I also regained some form of sanity, which was promptly lost the day after I got back to Japan. Didn't make it to London. I just tossed my ticket, since most of it was bought on a flight credit anyways.
New outlook for this year - Just let it fly. I'm not going to care so much at work, there's no point. Work doesn't care, so why should I? I'll care about my kids and their progress, but not a drop more. It would just be unhealthy to do any more than my job here.
So here's my thought of the day... How many hearts have you broken? How many do you know of? I'm just thinking about all the crushes I've had in the past and all the relationships I've been in... and I was thinking to myself "how many of these guys know that they've broken my heart?" This little thought came about because I've only recently been told that I broke someone's heart. Huh? I didn't even know that there were feelings. And I felt bad about it! Imagine if I actually knowingly did it!
Anyhoo. Will blog more later. I'm on a weird sleeping schedule. I've been sleeping at 9pm and waking up at 5am. I'm going to go out and enjoy the sunshine while I can. I can't believe it snowed again last night!
Snuffy... if you're reading this... I love you!~